Height: 5'1
HW: 140 lbs.
LW: 92 lbs.
CW: 114 lbs.
UGW: 80 lbs.
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I hate bowel movements. Unless I’ve taken a laxative (a habit I broke myself of but have lately been slipping back into). If I brought on the BM that way, then I’m okay with it. But naturally occurring BM’s make me feel like I’m eating too much because I wouldn’t have BM’s if I weren’t eating too much. I know this is highly illogical & crazy, but I swear it makes me feel bad when I naturally NEED to take a crap. Ugh.
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You should see my boyfriend. He’s got enough to list his skin color as rainbow, haha.
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Two weeks ago.
Two weeks ago I was 128 pounds.
Two weeks ago, I got a bit of a stomach bug.
Two weeks ago, I stopped eating. I threw up when I did.
Today I weigh 114 pounds. My clothes are loose. I feel smaller. I feel better. I’ve been drowning in a crushing depression for the past few months. Not eating hasn’t solved my problems. But I’d be lying if I said it DIDN’T make me feel better. I ate well for a while. But I can’t do it anymore. I can’t bring myself to eat again. I’m back to where I was. Part of me feels at home. Part of me is scared to death.
For better or for worse, here I am.
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Too early to be up.
But actually it’s not. I have to be at work at 9. Before that I have to pick up my boyfriend. I had a long & confusing night. I stayed with my grandma tonight & while it made me happy at the time, it’s made me depressed now. I miss living with her so much. I miss not having the stress of bills & taking care of a house on my own. I miss having the only thing I worry about being my eating disorder. Now I can’t just lay in bed when I’m too weak to wake up, I HAVE to go to my job. I HAVE to make money to pay the bills. It’s not optional anymore. And I work at a fucking buffet. A buffet! That’s one of the places I usually want to be FARTHEST from. I took a Stacker (diet pill) & it’s tearing my stomach apart. I’m not sure what this post is about. Just rambling at this point, I believe. Oh well, I will make today good. I WILL. Going grocery shopping later…wish me luck with that one, haha.
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my thoughts exactly!
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